You will know.
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are: Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough.

the Piss Boy.
Make it hurt so good.

You came dangerously close to making the classic internet trope of spitting coffee on the keyboard come true.
. . . used "tripe" as well, but I commend the choice of "trope".
If you're "terrified" by loving a woman you are either a drama queen or you're dating a coked up Russian stripper with a razor fetish.